Searching for myself

While filling up the profile, I realised..... there are more books that I WANT to read then what I have already read... More music to listen then I already know.... Learning water colour painting.... Whenever I visit Crosswords, I get so frustrated on seeing the pile of books and stands of cds.... that I end up buying nothing... thinking some other time... When that other time will come????

So here is the standard, age old, common-to-all excuse ' No Time'.... !!!! In fact, I may be mismanager of time or may be over the period of life and passing through tough years, have lost that keenness which I had in my teen year, when I used to read till the library's closing time and meeting mom on the way back home, coming searching for me or reading till late night 2 pm and from 6 am again in bed only, having 3-4 hours sleep only and completing 'Gujarat no nath' by Kannaiyalal Mumshi just in two days...

Or may be because priorities are changed.... Have been so much occupied in trying to play role of mother, wife, daughter-in-law, daughter etc..... that too stressfully perfect and wishing to match ideals.... have I lost myself in all these???? Or this is what I AM....